Warning: Introverted Skeptic

In an extroverted society, the difference between an introvert and an extrovert is that an introvert is often unconsciously deemed guilty until proven innocent.

Criss Jami

Shame on myself for letting all of the outlets that help me get through life wither and wane on the vine hoping someday that I’ll come back and visit them again. Blindly paying the bill to WordPress for a domain and hosting that just… sits there… patiently waiting for me to return and breath new life into an impressive history of posts. A history of pain, mental anguish, life events, and other random crap that I felt like sitting down and writing about. I could go into details as to why I stopped, why writing became a burden for me instead of an outlet, why it felt as if I wasn’t getting any benefit, why, why why… It doesn’t matter honestly, really doesn’t. What matters is that despite not writing for so long, for whatever reason, I still kept reading and still kept up with all those that I follow. It was a one-sided relationship, take but never give except in rare occasions. The silent follower that would “Like” a post but almost never comment and admittedly in the last few months, the liking of posts had even stopped.

I’m in a weird place right now, mentally and physically. That in between place where you’ve sorted through the tough stuff and have all the annoying crap left that takes up way more time than it should. Using the regular routine of gym, work, dinner, lather, rinse, repeat is amazingly helpful to me but quite the opposite to everyone else. My attitude to them has been one of implying they should go pound sand and leave me be until such time that I’m ready to allow entry back into my head space. This is definitely one of those “in my own head” phases that’s lasting a little longer than typical and if I’m being honest, I’m in no hurry to really figure out because it’s just easier most of the time. Those that know me best understand, those that don’t, well, they’re getting good at pounding sand.

If you would have just told me to go pound sand and never contact you again... that would have been freakin' awesome.  Cause I'm not real figurative but I understand words real well.

The approach of the infamous holiday season does not have me enthusiastic regarding my ability in finding a solution to my current situation. Arrival of family, in an otherwise closed in space, usually puts the brakes on any type of civility past a certain period of time and I end up just finding a space to retreat. Individuals that seek me out to find out if I’m “okay” after having segregated myself (obviously don’t know me well) receive the full force of attitude that has been stored up like a twisted rubber band. It’s not their fault really, more of a wrong place and time type of situation that I usually end up apologizing for later on when the tension is gone. There are days I wonder, not wish, why I am the way that I am. I’ve never known anything different though and have no frame of reference other than my perception of those that aren’t the same as me, which is subjective as hell.

Ok, for those that have made it this far, bravo to you. I’ll explain the featured image now. It’s awesome because in my advancing age, my skepticism has been one of my true infallible weapons. This makes for one hell of a combination though; introverted skeptic. I should start wearing shirts that give people some advance warning.

#introvert, #pound-sand, #reading, #skeptical, #wordpress, #writing

Migrated Back to WordPress.com

So, I decided that the cost and upkeep with a self-hosted blog was significantly more than I anticipated. The additional freedom to do what you want, how you want to do it, and in any way you want to do it no matter the “subscription” level wasn’t enough to make it worth all the other commitments required. The constant administration was enough to suck all the fun out of having a personal blog site in the first place. So much so despite years of writing easily migrating back to wordpress.com, none of my previous followers that had stuck with me during the first migration could stay with the return trip. I’m back to no followers again.

In my hasty retreat from self-hosted administration time suckage, I deleted the old site quicker than it took to transfer the domain and the lifebetween0and1.com site is currently offline and not reachable. Until the domain transfer goes through, it will continue to remain down. Oh well, it’s a lesson learned the hard way as are most lessons in the tech world, otherwise they wouldn’t be lessons. I’m hoping that I can still see followers through the JetPack details and get some messages off to those that I would still want to have follow me back again.

Now that I’m hosted again back at WordPress, at half the cost with a free domain I might add, I’m making some changes towards the minimal and slimming down the site even more than it already had been. Without constant administration, I really hope that the urge and drive to write more comes back again especially after I find a new job. That still has not happened yet, but I’m really close now with multiple irons in the fire. Only a matter of time.

#administration, #free-domain, #self-hosted, #wordpress

Spiffing Up The Joint

So, I’ve been busy with the design of the site lately.  Doing a few things here, a few things there.  Although I’m never quite satisfied with static pages, I am at the point where the overall theme and design are going to remain largely unchanged.  I’m sure there will be additions of new features and functions along the way as I find neat things to add to my self-hosted site.  The freedom that self-hosting provides is amazing and I only wish I had done it sooner.  Just for a point of clarification, I am on a self-hosted “managed” WordPress hosting provider, meaning they handle most of the heavy lifting.  I have the option to muck with it, but am choosing not to get into the weeds.  This managed system is relatively easy compared to a true self-hosted system where you essentially install, configure and publish the entire thing on your own.  I don’t have time for that kind of thing.

I’ve pulled my links from the old site to this one and you’ll see a greatly reduced listing below in the footer.  Unfortunately quite a few of the people who I had followed in the past have either locked their blogs and made them invite only or have left the platform all together.  As I find new people to read, I’ll be adding to the listing.  There are so many reasons I can think of that someone would stop writing and eventually leave the platform.  There are just as many reasons I can think of that makes someone decide to make their blog private.  At some point though, a private blog loses its appeal, at least in my experience.  To each their own.

Bonus points to the first person that can name the movie that the featured image came from 🙂

#followers, #improvement, #theme-design, #wordpress

Three Things Thursday – 10/27/2016

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Inspired by Nerd in the Brain

Bring the happy!

I’m late this week, I usually have this written the night before and scheduled to post automatically Thursday morning.  I got lost in another post, scheduled for tomorrow, which happens to be my 200th.

WordPress

An amazing platform that has provided me the ability to express myself in ways that would never have been possible in physical life.  There are so many great and fantastic writers on here it’s easy to lost large chunks of time just reading.  I’m happy that a platform such as this one actually exists and has stood the test of Internet time and continued to be relevant for so many years.

Prospect of a New Job

Wrote earlier this week about the prospect of a new job.  I had my screen call yesterday with the head hunter that cold called me last week and it went well.  The company sounds awesome and it would definitely be a stretch challenge putting me into uncharted territory from a career perspective.  I’m excited to make it to the next round which is probably going to be a face-to-face.  That’s when I get a better idea of the company and the people.  I’m happy where I am, so the questions I will have for the hiring manager will be blunt and aggressive as I’m not desperate to find a new job and have nothing to lose.  Should be an intersting experience.

Fall

It’s finally and officially fall here in the northeast.  We had our first frost yesterday morning and it was an amazing site to see the sparkly glint on everything as the sun came up.  I wish I had snapped a picture of it, but my phone was not on me at the time I took the dog out and it was too late in the morning when I did have my phone later.  I’ll have to remember to get a picture at our next frost.  This is one of my favorite times of year because I know 1) allergies are going away, 2) winter is around the corner, and 3) i’ll have as much Pumpkin Pie as I can handle for at least the next three months.

rockondaughter

Daughter Approved!

TTT Music Album Recommendation

Aggressive
by Beartooth

#beartooth, #fall, #new-job, #wordpress